Like decorating, I never took a class on parenting. I read a lot of books and online articles. But, I never attended an "actual" class. Women's hospital offers several and I thought about it several times. I just never signed up. Pottery Barn offers classes too....never signed up for one of those either. I realize decorating and parenting are not even in the same category, but I can make an analogy nonetheless.
I do not know how to decorate and it usually takes me years to buy something new for my house. This is especially true if it is a big purchase. Similarly, I did not have Julia until I was almost 30. Having a baby is not like making a big furniture purchase --- but, in a way it kind of is. I like to take my time..plan..be prepared and make a good decision. I took my time and waited until I was ready for Julia. Or atleast I thought.
The last few months have been so challenging. I have felt so many emotions...joy, excitement, stress, anxiety and even depression. Parenting is so challenging and very rewarding. However, I really have had to learn as I go. Like books, I am not sure that a class could have prepared me for this. I have accepted the fact that I cannot do this perfectly and I will make mistakes. I have learned that Julia is not like everyone else's baby and she will do things at her own pace. I have acknowledged that I cannot do this alone and that I need guidance from many people. But, I also know that at the end of the day-- I am my child's biggest advocate and I have to do what I think is best for her.
So, like decorating, I never took a class on parenting. I just go with my instincts and do the best that I can. It occurs to me that Julia is happy and healthy...even though she is a little bit. And...my mantle looks good too. :)
