JUNE 22, 2011

So, I was scheduled to be induced at 6 a.m. on Wednesday, June 22, 2011. I was 41 weeks pregnant at that time, which is obvious from the photos I took that morning.



However, I actually went into labor at about 11 p.m. Although, I did not know that I was in labor because it did not feel anything like what my doctor told me! I had cramps and lower back pain. I ended up calling the doctor on call at like 3 a.m. and he told me I could come in but he didnt think I was in active labor. Things got progressively WORSE! I called my mom and she said that she thought I was in labor. Anyways, long story short, I ended up at the hospital with contractions about 3-5 minutes apart. Obviously I was in active labor.

I got some pitocin and an epidural at around 8 am. I was so excited because I was progressing nicely but then it STOPPED. After 2 pm, I did not progress past 6 cm. But, the doc let me go until 6 p.m. at which time we decided I needed a C-section.

And....this is what we got!



Daddy was so proud of his new baby girl!

Time

Time is everything.

I was pregnant for 41 weeks.
In labor for 18 hours.
Stayed in the hospital for 3 days.
Get approximately 6 hours a sleep a day.
Feed Julia every 2-4 hours.
Am taking 3 months of maternity leave.
Ben and I have been married for 5 years (on July 29).
It has been almost one year since I lost my dad.
Julia will be five weeks old on Wednesday.

Time can be measured in so many different ways...weeks, minutes, hours, days, and years. It is so precious. It is so important. It goes by too fast and it goes by too slow.

I didn't have enough time with him. I sometimes do not cherish the time I have with her. Why is it so complicated?

Has it really been five years? I should be so thankful for everything we have accomplished in such a short time- a marriage, a career, a house, a baby. I am thankful. It just went by too fast.

I have a new goal in life. Take time to cherish the seconds, minutes, hours and days I have with my family. I am going to stop anticipating the next moment and enjoy the one I am in now. My baby is already 5 weeks old. Where did that time go?

I am so thankful for the time I have. The time I will have. The time I had. I wish I had more time. I wish I had embraced time more. I will embrace it now.